It's gonna be a rough, hard weekend, i can feel it

I need to find something to distract me

The day has already started off rough

It's only 9 am.

How am I supposed to get through this?

And why do I feel like I'm the only one that's hurting?

Would I feel better knowing that I'm not the only one?

This is all very new for me

And I don't want to ever go through anything like this again

Is that realistic though?

My co-worker asked me why I was moping around today.

I didn't know I was moping

Don't want to be a moper

That's pathetic...moping

I just need some closure

Something

Anything

Why can't I get that?

Does it mean I have to find closure within myself?

That's dumb...and too damn deep for me

I need face to face closure

I need you to LOOK ME IN MY FACE AND SAY IT!

You must not want to give me the satisfaction

Is this all a part your little game

I'm just being sucked right in

I really need to get a backbone

I never realized how weak I can be

This is all so new for me

Guess it had to happen sometime

Everybody has to go through it once, right?

But do they though?

I wonder if there's anyone who has never gone through it?

I just really need to get it together

I thought I was ok

I guess it depends on the day

or the hour

Ok, the more I write the more it hurts

I'm stopping